81. To be in silence

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To be for the silence, with the silence, and in silence means that we step over the boundary between life and existence, consciously dying to life so that we can be born into existence, so we can cross to the other shore. The ability to cross, to die, is a prerequisite for our consciousness, the pure spiritual awareness that means the self-knowledge and the knowledge we gain about us. For the silence devoted to self-knowledge, for the transition, we do not have to pay anyone, we do not have to pay taxes for it, we do not have to report it to anyone, because it is free and it is within us. The silence is ours. But its counterpart, the noise, is also ours. When we are in silence, there is no noise within us.

In a qualitative state (existence), we can only be in silence if we step out of quantity (life), out of noise. It could even be said that noise is the absence of silence, or vice versa. Silence and noise are pairs of the same duality, not opposites, as many believe. The world is not a world of opposites but of pairs. It is like a pair of shoes, and it does not matter which one we put on first in the morning. Those who see opposites still have much to learn. Silence is creation, holiness, just like teaching. From our Initiation Master and the spirit of the disciples, we must not only learn the teaching, but also how, why, and when to be silent. 

Silence is where there is no work, only art, no pleasure, only beauty, no life, only existence. However, in order to reach existence, beauty, silence, and space, we must fight our way through noise, pleasures, work, and life. It is not by chance that they say life is a struggle, but what needs to be clarified is what we are fighting for—whether it is, for example, to surround ourselves with as much material as possible between the opportunities in our dual (material and spiritual) life, or to overcome the obstacles mentioned earlier? Silence, the path inward, the discovery of the universal self, is an organic part of finding the way inward. Only in silence can we be ourselves, transform, renounce, and receive. Taking on the meta form means that we are in life, in time, yet at the same time, we are in existence, in space.

This is why the recognition of duality is beneficial, because then we can be here with one foot and there with the other. If we succeed in realizing duality within ourselves, then we will be in unity, in wholeness, in completeness. Silence and quieting, meditation, prayer—this is the state in which we can transform, know ourselves, and through this, change. If we can quiet ourselves, only then can we feel the horizontal and vertical nature of the cross on our shoulders, the tasks entrusted to us. The taking on the tasks, the cross, cannot be taken lightly; it must be done with full devotion, with full strength, that is, with both shoulders. There are no half-solutions, either this way or that; only complete, perfect, full, not incomplete solutions—yet we can also say that the solutions lead to achieving completeness. 

Silence is art, and within that, music—endless oscillation, surging, flooding, which always filling us. Music cannot exist without silence, and silence cannot exist without music. Art is the expression of this silence, and the proper sound’s placement, the pairing of silence and sound. Which sound fits with silence? Sound and silence (in music, this is also called a pause) together create rhythm. Rhythm is unlimited variety, circularity, hierarchy, while the beat is limited uniformity and flat linearity. Beethoven said that you should not search for the beginning or the end of music, because it does not have one. Music and in it, silence, always flows boundlessly, oscillates. It is in constant motion, just like love and grace. Those who constantly rush and are always busy do not notice the ever-present silence, the music, the love, the order, and the grace. What they see and experience is the material world, time, and the system. Since silence and music are circular, it also means that rebirth and death, life and death, alternate within it. Our Initiation Master also taught us that if we want to live in that world, (existence) we must renounce this material world. 

We often hear that our life is the world of shadows, because our life is only a copy, a replica, that is, a copy of existence, which also means that if the "below" exists here, the "above" exists there. For the "below" is the counterpart of the "above" and vice versa. Our task is to unite the state of above and below within us, not to see the world of shadows, but the universal world, the world of networks and connections. As we have already mentioned in another essay, we are the world, the universality, the above and the below, the outside and the inside, the cold and the warm, the light and the darkness together, and the list can continue. To recognize and understand these dualities, silence and meditation are necessary. We need to learn to be silent and direct others' attention to this as well. Silence must be learned and made conscious. Only in inner quiet can we hear the message of the One, its music. If we can tune our receiver’s frequencies to the frequencies, the waves of the One, only then can we receive the ever flowing message. This tuning is the revelation of the intellect within us, the discovery and use of our universal self. With rationality, cold thinking, liberal reasonableness, and mathematical precision, this is impossible, because rationality lacks intellect and order. 

When we are in constant noise, hustle, and continuous work, we renounce to silence, the possibility of meditation, and prayer. This renunciation is usually unconscious, because we have no idea what we are doing. We do not ask ourselves whether we are in noise by our own choice, or if it has been forced upon us by someone. The interest of power is to detach us from silence, so that we cannot stop and think. It always drives us to hurry, to rush, to do five things at once. But why? The purpose of renouncing silence is to generating noise, to distract us from concentration, from giving precise answers, from being concentrated. The interest of power lies in scattering, entertainment, disorder, noise-making, rushing, increasing ignorance, showing the surface—the tangible and visible material world—and the urge to acquire it. Being is silence, on the other hand, is the opposite of all these. Those who only see and experience the former are the rich poor who have turned their world upside down and expect others to do the same. Many people see the world in opposites because that is what power expects from them.