50. About you: Chapter - Born twice (24)

When we strive to continuously leave our individual self, we awaken to the realization that sometimes we must go against ourselves and leave the self-image we have so strongly clung to. Letting go of the self-image can sometimes be accompanied by fear, because we step into an unknown territory, and we feel that in this uncertain realm, our self may be destroyed. If we manage to move this stage, our soul becomes increasingly confident and feels at home. As we gain experiences and remember what it is like to find our new self, our universal self, when we are born again in spirit. At this point, our rational, reasonable, individual self, which is attached to matter, no longer struggles, but gradually makes space for the universal self, through which we can turn around and start returning to the One. 

Our soul increasingly begins to search for the centre of the intersection between the vertical and horizontal planes, that is, to find itself at the centre of the cross. We realize that the dissolution of our individual self, its merging into the universal self, is the only operation that allows us to step out of the fluctuations of life, from constant motion, and find being, stillness. Therefore, we must be consciously aware, as true and normal human beings, ready to jump in the NOW, not rigidly clinging to the past or any result. We must dare to born twice. Also taking on the risk of renouncing the individual self enables our soul to seize the opportunity that is also a task—or rather a series of tasks—that must be solved. We must know that the solution to every problem in life is an opportunity for something greater. Once we feel this, opportunities unfold, and our life becomes a series of experiences, wonders, and adventures. Our awareness and participation in the cycle of love also help us in carrying out these tasks. The concept called luck is nothing more than awareness, being prepared to provide a solution when the task presents itself. Luck is where awareness meets opportunity. 

The world around us, which we have been taught to call reality and which we can perceive through our five senses, is not the true reality. It is only an objective and material world, but it is also an illusion, because we all perceive the same object, scent, or taste differently. When this happens, we generally say that everyone is right—let’s add: from their point of view. The other world, the world of the One, is invisible and incomprehensible to our senses—it is a subjective world beyond our senses, which we can only perceive with our spiritual ability, with consciousness, with our higher, reason-transcending soul understanding. We must ask ourselves: what do we stake our earthly/mortal life on? Which world do we want to know? If we are mature enough, we choose the latter, the subjective world, because the so-called objective world will pass away with us, while the subjective world will always/forever be with us, as it is within us, in our universal self. 

According to the example of our Initiation Master, we must redeem ourselves, put ourselves in order, which primarily means freeing ourselves from matter and attachments. Some people experience this moment at thirty, others at fifty, and some even at eighty. Those who, regardless of age, remain at a childlike level, do not grow up, die like children, like tadpoles, because they did not have time to mature, in other words, to born twice. They know the tree of matter, but not the wisdom, and they cannot distinguish the tree of wisdom from the tree of matter. The reborn person must be able to differentiate between sensual passion, religious zeal, selfish interest, and love, between selfish action and self-denial, between dishonesty and morality, as well as between fraudulence and wisdom.